Err...

So I would go into some deep psychological bullshit about how "hes so awesome and shit and blah blah stuff that is really confusing and you thing I'm just pissed and not acually talking about something interesting" but alas I won't bore you. I'm just going to say.

I'm lonely so fucking lonely. Yes, I'm shallow, but you forget this is a blog. Yes, I'm going to be an attention whore for this post.

Sure, I've got friends. But I feel sad when people keep whining about guys and their boy issues and... I, I just want a boyfriend.

I want someone to keep me company, tell me that at the end of the night before i go to bed, "Hey, I love you. Hey here's a virtual hug. Hey, I can't wait to see you."

Yeah. I want someone to hold me constantly, someone to share their umbrella, someone to yell at those who tease me, someone to chill with me at lunch, to take me on dates, to open the door, to give me their jacket when its cold after walking away from olive garden after our dinner. Someone to tell me I'm special. Someone who's just sorta...

There.

kthxbai.

Dreamer

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have an honest to god conversation with you.

Other times I'm glad just admiring from afar.

But it would be nice to know you, just a little, then I wouldn't feel so conceited. Just judging you on looks and how you act in public.

Honestly? I wish you would grab me in your arms
And hug me. Just once. Even if you left without saying anything. A smile would be nice. Or, perhaps the honor of saying my name... Not even.

If you could remember my name, that would be awesome.

Of course, that's how unfair life is. It was fun though, watching you skate down the hallway. Pretending you might remember me.

(thanks for dealing with my moodswings... Whoever wastes their time reading this. Yeah. Kthnxbai)

Beginnings

So we all know of the amazing gamers that have worked so hard to be able to a level seventy six thousand in the virtual world of RPG's. I just have to ask,

How?

I mean most people don't ask this question. because they never wonder how, the just sort of wish they could be as awesome at RPG's as said gamer. I mean gamers feel they have the right to call beginners n00bs because they are, after all, way better than whomever they are yelling at. But it make me realize that I don't want to be a hard-core gamer if there is always a level higher you can go or another player that is just a tiny bit better than you. Because thats what videogames do, they suck you in and want you to keep playing.

But how is it possible to get to that seventy six thousandth level. I feel that the only way to is to make your own video game that only you are awesome at playing.

That seems like too much work. I suck at video games and I will gladly admit to it. Doesn't mean that being called a n00b doesn't hurt. But though I stay silent through the online touture, I'd say to those who call me a n00b,

FUCK YOU. I may suck at video games, but I guarantee I have more friends and a better social life than you due to the fact that you spend WAY too much time on RPG's. I'll go back to my tumblr and My Little Pony, thanks.

And those who disagree can go screw themselves.

kthxbai.

Rapture

So Rapture....

Hahaha... nice one.

Wait, Tommorow? Really?

So the entire year, us Otakus wait for one thing and one thing only, CONVENTIONS!

And what do ya know? One Happens to be this weekend... wait, Today is Thursday. Tekko. Is. Tomorrow.

HOLY NOT-READY-YET BATMAN!

Err, well I guess I'm ready, but, still, can't it be i dunno? Next weekend?

Still, I'm super excited. I have two cosplays and I'm only planning on going friday and saturday. I might go sunday, but that depends on my endurance and stamina.

My two cosplays are Captain Hammer from Doctor Horrible for Friday and Rhyme from The World Ends With You on Saturday.

I'm super excited and can't wait!

Does It Really Get Better?

I'm starting to think it doesn't. Oh? It's not so bad you say? I beg to differ.

• I have an upper respiratory infection. I also happened to have given it to my ENTIRE family.
• I like this guy. And he posted on my wall, I think he's worried that I've been out all week. So I commented back. He hasn't.
• My friend Emily stopped by my house. To pick up my sister.
• For a Joanne's run. Okay, I never really liked fabric or sewing. For our group cosplay.
• "Oh, well buy me mine?" "Sure, sure." She gets home? Green Fabric, Green Fabric. And hey look! Nothing for Sierra. Yay.
• Oh, The top of my "Life's a Bitch" Sundae, Ashley the bitch that drove me insane on the band trip to Arizona? Yeah she keeps patronizing me. 
• And she thinks she's making it better.

So yeah, shoot me 'cause I wanna say "My Life Sucks"

Sick

So I have this friend that makes blog posts when she's sick about her symptoms. So here:

• Fever of almost 100 degrees
• "Chills" as my mom calls them but I clearly thing that is miss named because I have flashes of cold AND hot.
• Lethargic(ness?) even though I slept over twelve hours last night with trouble falling asleep and staying asleep
• Runny nose
• Horrible cough
• Burning sensation in the nose and throat (both solved when I constantly drink tea but I can't constantly drink while sleeping.)
• Feeling that I don't know what I'm doing or what some people would call hallucinogenic (although I sorta feel that way all the time)