If I Cry Will I Feel Better?

So thsi guy I used to like was chatting with me today on facebook. And I was super excited. I didn't know why, perhaps it was because he and I were friends now or school is starting soon and that means classes. And we were talking about that and here's how the conversation went from there.
Guy, "when do you have lunch"
Me, "fifth"
And for some reason I couldn't understand I REALLY wanted his answer to be fifth as well.
Guy, "sixth"
i was silent for a while. I was also undeniably sad for another unknown reason.
Me, "aww"
Then I realized I might not be over him yet and that sucks, a lot. Because I told myself I was over him. I was all sad because I didn't have any classes with him and I really want a boyfriend this year, and then.
Guy, "hey do you if anna is still in band becu=ause she was not there this week."
...ouch
So what could i do but put up a stupid front about how i didn't care that he really wanted to know about Anna and not me.
Because let's face it, I'm fat and ugly and stupid and not fucking perfect Anna.
But any way i told him she was on vacation he was all "awesome"
And then I cried on the inside.
And then I ate cookie dough.
And then I told my friend.
PC: i'm sorry things have to suck
YOU: yeah
YOU: me too

KTHNXBAI

Never...

Remind me to never go to China. Unless I have one of those nifty droid phones that gives me internet access. I am so sorry Evies. here are some pictures I found on tumblr to make you feel better.
First one is a bridge they made somewhere... Portal Light bridge much?
The second one is my current wallpaper. Angel Beats thank you.
More portal. Chell.
The only good thing about the television show victorious.
Have fun in China and stuff.

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WHY!!!!

Why am I so freaking bored. I've been looking forward to staying home and doing nothing for the past... week and like. Now what?
Why was I so Excited? I dunno. I have nothing to fekking do! Seriously.
I am so bored. So like I wanna do stuff.
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Now If you haven't noticed i don't care about making this flow. I'm just babling. Rawom nom nom. I wanna watch anime but how can i find anime that isn't boring. Tumblr isn't fun cause i follow like three people.
So yeah.
Kthnxbai.

For Real?

So, I actually think I might make it! I'm actually going to make a web series. I'm not going talk about the plot or anything, but I'm seriously excited about making it. And making it good! So stay tuned for more information!

Err...

So I would go into some deep psychological bullshit about how "hes so awesome and shit and blah blah stuff that is really confusing and you thing I'm just pissed and not acually talking about something interesting" but alas I won't bore you. I'm just going to say.

I'm lonely so fucking lonely. Yes, I'm shallow, but you forget this is a blog. Yes, I'm going to be an attention whore for this post.

Sure, I've got friends. But I feel sad when people keep whining about guys and their boy issues and... I, I just want a boyfriend.

I want someone to keep me company, tell me that at the end of the night before i go to bed, "Hey, I love you. Hey here's a virtual hug. Hey, I can't wait to see you."

Yeah. I want someone to hold me constantly, someone to share their umbrella, someone to yell at those who tease me, someone to chill with me at lunch, to take me on dates, to open the door, to give me their jacket when its cold after walking away from olive garden after our dinner. Someone to tell me I'm special. Someone who's just sorta...

There.

kthxbai.

Dreamer

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have an honest to god conversation with you.

Other times I'm glad just admiring from afar.

But it would be nice to know you, just a little, then I wouldn't feel so conceited. Just judging you on looks and how you act in public.

Honestly? I wish you would grab me in your arms
And hug me. Just once. Even if you left without saying anything. A smile would be nice. Or, perhaps the honor of saying my name... Not even.

If you could remember my name, that would be awesome.

Of course, that's how unfair life is. It was fun though, watching you skate down the hallway. Pretending you might remember me.

(thanks for dealing with my moodswings... Whoever wastes their time reading this. Yeah. Kthnxbai)

Beginnings

So we all know of the amazing gamers that have worked so hard to be able to a level seventy six thousand in the virtual world of RPG's. I just have to ask,

How?

I mean most people don't ask this question. because they never wonder how, the just sort of wish they could be as awesome at RPG's as said gamer. I mean gamers feel they have the right to call beginners n00bs because they are, after all, way better than whomever they are yelling at. But it make me realize that I don't want to be a hard-core gamer if there is always a level higher you can go or another player that is just a tiny bit better than you. Because thats what videogames do, they suck you in and want you to keep playing.

But how is it possible to get to that seventy six thousandth level. I feel that the only way to is to make your own video game that only you are awesome at playing.

That seems like too much work. I suck at video games and I will gladly admit to it. Doesn't mean that being called a n00b doesn't hurt. But though I stay silent through the online touture, I'd say to those who call me a n00b,

FUCK YOU. I may suck at video games, but I guarantee I have more friends and a better social life than you due to the fact that you spend WAY too much time on RPG's. I'll go back to my tumblr and My Little Pony, thanks.

And those who disagree can go screw themselves.

kthxbai.