My Monologue Is Depressing

So in acting, we're supposed to do a monologue on hunger. It's depressing so, I decided to shove it on my viewers!~
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I Love Him.

Seriously. I actually think I love him. But, different than before. Not like other crushes. It wasn't infatuation. I can see his flaws. And still, I feel this way.

But. He could be gone. In a matter of seconds. She, she asked him out. My own friend. Some one I laughed with, and cried with. Someone I told almost EVERYTHING. And When she told me, many thoughts ran through my grief stricken head.

Anger, that she'd asked him out. And pretended like the entire argument we had yesterday meant nothing to her.

Frustration, that she had the guts to do it.

Disappointment, in myself, that she had the guts and I didn't. 

Luckily, He hasn't responded yet. And, I'm glad. But, nervous. That there is still the chance he could say yes. And it depresses me. That he could love her and forget all times we shared.

Yet I won't relinquish the feelings I have. I still feel so strongly. Why? I say I love him, and its because, I do. I just can't bring myself to tell him.

Sure he's got his flaws. He's not very good-looking, and he has this ungodly way of bragging about himself but his pros! He can fill a room with light. And he's incredibly intelligent. He's got one of those personalities that just, attract me. His cons may be plentiful but his pros, could fill the grand canyon and still need more room.

Though he has some really bad traits, I would put them all aside, purely for the talks we have. The subtle smiles and laughter. How he could make the entire world around me disappear.

Just me and him. In a hallway, that's all I ask. Him. His mystical way of making me feel special.

So B. It

Now this is a nerdy post. Very Nerdy. So nerdy... wanna know why? ITS A BOOK! *SHOCK*

Now this book is very unrealistic and very cheesy and corny. But the plot twists are amazing. So there's this girl. And She's got a mother and an aunt-like-but-is-actually-a-neighbor. Her A.L.B.I.A.A.N.'s name is Bernadette. her mother's name is unknown for most of the book. So I won't spoil it. They all live together in Reno. Her mother has "a bum-brain" as the book brings mention to. Basically, she has Autism or some kind of mental disease and has the inability to act in the real world by herself.

So anyway, Her mother knows only fifteen words. one of which is complete gibberish, soof. Heidi (our protagonist if you hadn't noticed) really REALLY really REALLY wants to know what it means. So she gathers some clues and heads out to Liberty, New York. By bus. (Just so you know. she is like twelve. and that's like a REALLY long way away) There she meets several people and

I'M GOING TO STOP. Other wise I'd spoil it. But other than that, It was REALLY good. I recommend it for anybody. Especially if you hate long books because this book barely exceeds 200 pages.

I'm three for three,
Cwee Cwee